I wrote out a lengthy rant, but then I decided against publishing it. I've decided to be numb for at least another month. I refuse to be degraded by some assholes of "friends" (I'm not referring to my close friends, am simply referring to others who thinks they have a big say in my life). This is my life, and you certainly don't have a say in it. I can do what ever the fuck I want in my life. And as far as you go, you're not a part of it, so fuck off. I can choose to fuck my life or to make the best out of it and I certainly want you out of it.

LMAO, I ended up ranting again.

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posted by Ana @ 11:23 AM 0 Comments

I hate it when guys (especially Malay ones) who thinks girly girls can't listen to rock bands. Just because I listen to The Devil Wears Prada, Underoath, Emarosa, Drop Dead, Gorgeous or Slipknot it doesn't mean that I have to dress up like a fucking rockstar with eyeliners and nothing but black attire. WE LIVE IN A (NOT SO MUCH OF A) FREE COUNTRY, FOR FUCKS SAKE, what gives you the right to call ME a poser or look at me as though I am one? Of course, I love fashion, I try to keep up with the fashion world, but that doesn't mean I listen to Hip Hop and (c)rap music. I may not look like one but I'm definitely a rocker at heart.

So why is it that if I were to attend a local show here, guys tend to look at me as though I don't belong there? Why is it that if I enter Rock Corner or or Kompleks Pertama in search of CDs of my favourite bands the abangs there look at me as though I'm lost? As far as I know there are no written or unwritten rule that says girls who don't dress up like a big rock chick can't listen to rock stuffs. 

Look at my Last.fm, those are the bands that I listen to EVERY SINGLE DAY. Why in the bloody fuck would I want to download over 13 gigabytes of hardcore music if I don't like them? Seriously, drop with your snobbish attitude! I've got guys who get download links for albums of Emarosa, Bring Me the Horizon, etc. FROM ME. 

This is what I FUCKING HATE THE MOST about Malay guys who are so called "hardcore". Gender and the way a person dress should not be a reason as to why we can or cannot listen to hardcore music. 

So here's a big FUCK YOU to those sexists!

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posted by Ana @ 10:47 PM 2 Comments

I find it rather annoying when people add me on Myspace and when I've approved them, the first thing they say when they comment me is, "Hi, do spam/comment my pics, yeah?" I'd normally delete that person from my friends list the moment I get that kind of comments. It's called "Myspace: A Place for Friends" not "Myspace: A Place to Collect Picture Comments From Friends". I do check out my friend's pictures, and I do give them picture comments, but I don't like it when a stranger add me just to ask me to comment his or her pics. You already have 300+ comments on one single picture (which I find is totally ridiculous unless you're a famous celebrity), why do you need even more?

Grow the fuck up.

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posted by Ana @ 9:38 PM 2 Comments

Unbelievable.

Congrats to Kris Allen who won the bloody thing. Too bad that you'll only just become another "Jason Mraz" on the airways. We have a lot of that playing on the radio, thank you very much. That's why I don't like listening to the radio. 

Adam Lambert on the other hand, yes, some of you might think he "over the top" or "too much", but that's showmanship. At least his performances are exciting. When was the last time he got a bad comment from the judges? NONE! The only comments that are considered "bad" are he is too theatrical. OF COURSE HE IS! He performed in plays prior to joining American Idol, duh!

I don't even remember that song that Kris Allen sang yesterday. I remember all of Adam's performances because he NEVER puts up a dull show. 

Kris Allen can't even sing the song that Kara co-wrote. The notes were too high for him. Adam fits perfectly. 

But I guess Adam's too good for American Idol. If he ever comes out with a record, it'll be a full-fledged Rock album, and rock music rarely gets it into the airways anymore. Except for "rock" shits by Daughtry (who sounds more and more country by the day), One Republic (who only got famous because of Timbaland) and freaking The Fray.

SLASH WAS A FAN OF ADAM TOO! Adam performed with fucking KISS! And hit the high notes of Queen's "We Are The Champions". Kris can't do that. Kris' vocal range is nothing compared to Adam's vocal range. 

Just so you know, I am a fan of Adam and will always be a fan of Adam. I've liked him since I saw his audition. He will go far in the industry, you can bet on that. Gay or not, he's the one. 

I shall go now and continue listen to Slipknot.

P/s: And please lah, Adam haters, stay away from the comment box. Every one has their own opinions, and since this is MY blog, I will post whatever the fuck I want.

Labels: music, rants, tv

posted by Ana @ 10:10 AM 3 Comments

I know that my spoken English is not that good but I can safely say that my written English is okay-ish (never better than *cough*Vikram*cough* but better than most Malays lah) (admit it weh, some Malays knows nothing about good English).

Switching to "Ana the English Language Elitist" mode.

This is what annoys me the most. Random Malay dudes added me on Myspace. They started commenting with me. I commented them back. And the conversation moves to a healthy chat session at YM or MSN. Normal lah kan to insert a few random English words in a string of Malay sentences. And then tiba-tiba lak the next sentences from this guy all comes in in English. I had a bit of a laugh then since his English was bad. Like really bad. He said something like this:

Him: I'm hungry. I feel I have butterfly in my stomach.
Me: (being all English elitist at that moment) Asal you nervous pulak?
Him: Huh?
Me: Ye lah, you said you had butterflies in your stomach. Nervous lah tu. Why?

Kalau English kau bagus aku tk kesah lah. Ni ayat mcm kena Tsunami berterabur.

So snap out of it. I don't judge people based on their first language. For me, English is my first language since I speak in English even at home and most of my primary school years. But c'mon ah weh, if you're fluent in Malay, talk in Malay. If you're fluent in English, then by all means talk in English. I don't care. As long as you speak in a languge that I understand.

Tamil and Malyalam doesn't count. I can't differentiate between them but I can understand A BIT ONLY, so don't be a genius to try and talk with me using them.

Next up, lame questions and lame flirting sentences.

I'm sure most of us girls get this one in many social networking sites. I feel that it's downright stupid and ridiculous. Dulu I layan jugak all these stuffs just to have fun while at the same time expectine nothing in return. Now I'm purely bored of it all. 

If you want to know, I've only had 1 relationship in the past which only lasted for 3 weeks. Am I proud of it? No. Do I regret any of that? No. Sure, I regret having a relationship with that particular person, and I regretted having it lasted for 3 weeks only. But hey, just because it lasted for 3 weeks, it doesn't mean that we weren't in love. I wasn't in love. I liked him a lot lah, tu je. But in a way I learned a lot from that relationship.

That was 2 years ago. So why don't I have a bf now? Probably because I've come to a phase where I don't mind being single. I love being single. I'm not looking for anyone just yet. I love the fact that I can do whatever I want without having to report to a particular person of all the things I'm doing. That's a violation of my own freedom. I hate being chained down by another person, especially a guy.

Anyways back to my point. That's the reason why I don't do lame flirtings, lame one-liners, lame pick up sentences, lame bf questions, everything. I get bored of the same old shit they ask. 

I love replying comments from people who posted long-assed comments on my profile. Long comments with substance. Of course lah if that person comment about him all the time naik bosan jugak ah aku bace.

Next, online popularity. Haaa, ni aku nampak everywhere. Poorly edited pictures to show yg dorang ni hot and all. Making 1000 albums for each and every places they went. And then adding people just for the sake of asking them to comment their pictures. Gosh, I hate people like this. It shows that you guys have no real life with no real friends. I do take pictures with my friends when we go out, but I don't make several albums with dates on it to show how many times I go out. 

SEXIST REMARKS. I fucking hate hate hate this. Y'know it's the so-called "screamo/hardcore" trend now. I love hardcore music, been listening to them for years now. But now that the "trend" has started, guys tend to make sexist remarks against moi! I'll put a song by Emarosa or The Devil Wears Prada and they'll comment "Wow, tdwp eh. Tak sangka girls mcm u pun dgr music cmtu. Biasenya girls dgr hip hop/pop stuff." Well, excuse me for being different then! 

I've been listening to bands like From First To Last since 2005 lah weh. Korang baru nk start dgr skrg jgn ckp besar lah. Dgr pun band mainstream, TDWP, BMTH sume. Pastu dgr satu lagu je. Excuse me, The Devil Wears Prada? I have 2 of their ALBUMS. You guys dgr Bring Me the Horizon's song Pray For Plagues? I have their entire "Suicide Season" ALBUM. Korang baru je nk obsess with Alesana's song Ambrosia? I have TWO of their ALBUMS. Drop Dead Gorgeous? 2 ALBUMS are in my posession. Emarosa? 1 full ALBUM, 1 EP. 3OH!3 baru kuar Hitz.fm? I have their album since late last year. 

I'll be very grateful if you keep all the sexist remarks to yourself. Just because I listen to hardcore music and the fact that I was born with a vagina instead of a dick it doesn't mean that I can't listen to good music.

LASTLY, strangers having a say in my life. I hate this the most. Some people ask me which college I'll be going and when I answer politely Limkokwing, what I get in return is nothing but pessimistic and cynical remarks. Some people even say stuff like "Why LKW? Situ dah lah mahal, ramai foreigners. Asal u tk ambik scholarship Astro or 8TV? Asal u tk masuk UiTM or other public Uni? Asal u tk nk masuk private yg lain?" 

1) I ONLY HAVE 4As. I'm sorry I didn't get a string of As like YOU did. Hence I can't get any scholarship. 2) I DIDN'T GET UiTM. Public uni mana lagi yg offer mass comm, idiot. 

Here's why I can enter Limkokwing. For a 3 year Diploma course for selected courses (including the one that I'm going for, Multimedia, Advertising & Broadcasting) you only have to pay RM24k for the whole course. And when you finish this course you can get an additional 50% discount for the whole Degree course to enter the 2nd year Degree course. All in all, I only have to pay RM39k for 3 years Diploma AND 1 1/2 year Degree. That's even cheaper when compared to UCSI. 

Plus, who are you to try and have a say in my life? The last time I remember this is MY education and MY future. I don't even met you before, I don't even know you, you're a complete stranger. On what basis are you telling me how to live my life? C'mon. No more cynical remarks, okay. Advices are appreciated. 

Tu je lah kot. Penat type memanjang. I wanted to just rant out about some stupid stuffs that I find annoying. To those who read the whole thing, thanks for lending me your time.  :)

Labels: rants, stupid people

posted by Ana @ 8:50 AM 4 Comments